So….I am a quitter I don’t mean to be but I am. I start off with the best intentions and than I slide off the ban wagon. I have gained 10 pounds and every time I get into a good gym groove and clean eating schedule we get sick (no joke) within the 7-10 days of our workout plan and before I know it it’s been a month of gym free living! I hate it. I have been reading this book, “Girl, Wash your Face” and the author explains how keeping promises to yourself are just as important as keeping promises to others. This is an area in my life I struggle tremendously at! I do a pretty decent job at keeping promises to others especially my children but when it comes to me or that back rub I promised my Hubbie I’m a total flake!
I am determined to get refocused this next month… I am setting my plan into action. I started small setting a daily reminder to avoid sugar and limit carbs. Having a daily reminder helps me stay focused on the task at hand instead of worrying about the future. Okay next thing to do get back on my calcium/ magnesium supplement, and lastly get organized with meals! I have been in a whole Marie Kondo kick; which, has been very beneficial for my life right now to have organization amidst all the chaos with my husband’s career being in flux. Now it’s time to take some organization to our weekly meal routine; which in turn helps out with budget so win/win!
Febuary is also the resumption of my in home bible study. So I really need to get into gear so I can be an effective facilitator for these beautiful women! Mom life is hectic we wear so many hats and it can feel sometimes as if the weight of the world is on our shoulders. Between the kids, homeschool, working, tending to the home, bible studies, time with our hubbies, friendships, and prioritizing ourselves it’s insane all we as women try to do! It’s been so refreshing to have help. Before my husband quit I was by myself non stop with the kids. Every appointment hair or otherwise I brought two little people with me! I RARELY got to do anything by myself and now I have help 24/7. It’s eased my anxiety and loneliness and offered me time to breathe. It’s been an absolute blessing from God, after six years of this solo mom gig to finally have some assistance and support! But as much as I love my Hubbie being home I know he needs to rejoin the working class so we can have income, health benefits, and 401k contributions. Those things are important right? Lol. As we seek God’s will I am getting excitedly nervous all at the same time. I am excited to see where God moves us or if He even does. I am excited for the potential of a new home in a new city perhaps in a new state altogether. The possibilies are endless and as I egerly peer into the future I have to regain my attention, “focus on today!” Why is it so hard to be content in the present? I look at my boys and think just treasure today, their voices, their sizes, their interests. For they too are ever changing (much faster than I can handles at times), yet I am always seeking God to give me glimpses of what’s ahead. But He works everything to His timing not ours. So I must remain focused on Matthew 6:34
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
Isn’t amazing how applicable the Bible truly is in this modern day and age? I am in awe of how scripture calms my soul and gives me applicable truths to implement into this crazy thought process I provoke within myself. Just worry about today! So I am going back like I said in the beginning of this blog post to reconnect my goals and prioritizes to what God has put before me for the 24- hour period. He knows all of my hearts desires and dreams so I can rest assured that He the king of kings will see to it that my heart is taken care of amidst the uneasy ness of this world.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)
I may have no idea of what earthly struggles or blessings are before me but I do know my end destiny will be in heaven beside my one and only Father. I have to admit I get a little giddy at the idea of being before Him. I crave that moment to feel His presence to be encompassed by Him. To no longer fear any outcome because the best is before me. Death nor life can separate us from Him and in that I find complete and utter comfort, truth and reassurance. My life is but a glimpse of what is to come so I can take my next steps forward with a light heart and a worry free mind. I pray you find peace in that truth today!
hugs,
Julie Black
Faith Based Heart by Julie Black 